There is something so lovely and optimistic about new beginnings....well, at least for me. And luckily, due to my pathetic memory, life is just full of new beginnings without much carryover from previous experiences. Unfortunately, my pathetic memory can also cause me to make the same or similar mistakes more than once.
I first did the online thing shortly after my previous boyfriend and I broke up. Usually I'll get a tattoo as my gesture towards closure and moving on to a new phase of my life. This time, I think because I was a bit downtrodden and hurt (he had made his own gesture towards closure and moving on by actually moving on with another woman before we broke up) I decided to take my issues out to the dating world.
I started emailing with this really nice guy, Agent J, and I soon found out that one of his hobbies was riding unicycles. Unicycles? Who rides unicycles? Well apparently Agent J and also the ex. They also shared a few other similarities (which of course I can't recall at this point) but unicycles? Really? So now I'm thinking that this must be a sign......I have no idea what it's a sign of or if it's good? bad? a warning? just weird coincidence? So I stop communicating with him (I know what you're thinking....lucky for him).
Well, many months later I notice that he is back online. I email him to apologize for blowing him off because at this point I'm under the impression that I'm not so much of a mess as I was earlier. We end up talking on the phone and all seems well and we actually agree to meet for dinner. I have since decided that you should NEVER meet for dinner from an online dating site........drinks...coffee (for those non-drinkers of which there seems to be quite a few now)...something that could be expedited if needed. Anyway needless to say that dinner kinda fell flat because the poor guy (once again) just kept reminding me of the ex. And before you think that I haven't come to terms with the break up, no one else has ever reminded me of the ex.....just Agent J. So maybe it was some sort of kismet that we meet.....although I am still unsure why. Perhaps it was to remind me not to revisit the past. Let the past mistakes go...let the past hurt and deceit go...let the nice guy who you blew off once go...sometimes life affords you second chances and sometimes you just really need to let go and embrace your new beginnings.
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